It's over.

once again, im dragged into a scolding session. my bro was the fucker who made a mistake. why do i have to get dragged into it. i was jus sitting on the sofa reading my book. minding my own business and i got told off for stayin up late aft getting off the com. now parents are planning on taking off the modem jus cors that pathetic excuse of a human didnt do his fuckin hwk. wad abt me. i did my hwk. i asked eug when i didnt noe how to do anything. im working hard to please everyone but im jus getting scolded for every single thing i do wrong. how fair is that. oh its sooooooooooooooooooo fair. my bro does something right and they shower him with praise. i do everything to get their attention but im looked over. yes its very fair. how hard is it jus to look at me once and notice me for who i am and not wad i can do to help my bro. how hard is it jus to treat me as an only child once in a while. i jus fade into the background when he's around. im so transparent it hurts. is it too much to want to cry when im hurt ? when i cry in front of them for no reason they call me crazy. when i cry because a book is sad they laugh at me. all i want is jus a listening ear in this family. apparently its not possible. to them, im jus this emotional, selfish girl whu cannot take a joke. fine. if thats wad they want to see me as, so be it. its in my nature to be that way cors thats the fuckin way they treat me.

thats from yst. aft i got off the com.

today
played bball aft sku. spent abt the firs hour telling ghost stories and chmel spooked herself out. aft that, she gtg so we decided to match. me and sushan vs. yuanting and weiting. they won of cors. den jon and gang came along and we matched. aft tryin to drag weiting to play wid us, she jus wouldnt budge so we jus played without her. yeah. and it was jus typically funny. read weiting's blog. more details are in there. im jus lasii to type. heh.